Mis Pinturas/My Paintings

I'm not a painter but this the way I have been expressing my feelings lately.
No soy pintora pero de esta manera he estado expresando mis sentimientos ultimamente.

Fast

Growing Pains

Too Small

Exploding

Epiphany

No. I'm not in love with words. I'm in love with the manner in which words are said. I'm in love with the sounds, the tones, the voice, the breath that could be identified before each pause. I'm in love with the meaning behind the words. I'm in love with the motives. I'm in love with the way in which they are perceived. I'm in love with the voices that bring them to life and the hands that create their images. I like the way they look, the way they can make people feel and think and be.

No. I'm not in love with words. Not with them particularly. I'm in love with everything about them.

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No. No estoy enamorada de las palabras. Estoy enamorada de la manera en la que las palabras son enunciadas. Estoy enamorada de los sonidos, los tonos, la voz, el suspiro que se identifica entre cada pausa. Estoy enamorada del significado detrás de las palabras. Estoy enamorada de los motivos. Estoy enamorada de la manera en que son percibidas. Estoy enamorada de las voces que les dan vida y las manos que crean sus imágenes. Me gusta como se ven, como hacen a la gente sentir y pensar y ser.

No. No estoy enamorada de las palabras. No particualrmente de ellas. Estoy enamorada de todo sobre ellas.

Saona Island, Dominican Republic

300 people live in Saona Island without electricity or mineral water. It is a beautiful place to go and enjoy. I am glad that I discovered it is this year's trip to my country.

300 personas viven en la Isla Saona sin electricidad o agua potable. Es un lugar maravilloso para visitar y disfrutar. Estoy contenta de haberla descubierto en el viaje de este año a mi país.

Some Things

My family, New Year's Eve, Santo Domingo, Dominican Republic

"Happiness is only real when shared"

-Christopher Mccandless

Pensamientos

No matter how many times it has been said, is said or will be said that we are not our thoughts, I can safely say that I am. I am my thoughts. I am my feelings. I am my life.
I
AM.

If I see, I think of what I see. If I feel, I think of what I feel, and I breath in deep with the realization whispered unto myself: I am alive....

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No importa cuántas veces ha sido dicho, es dicho o será dicho que no somos nuestros pensamientos, puedo decir con seguridad que lo soy. Soy mis pensamientos. Soy mis sentimientos. Soy mi vida.
YO
SOY.

Si veo, pienso en lo que veo. Si siento, pienso en lo que siento, y respiro bien hondo con el descubrimiento susurrado a mi misma: Estoy viva....

La Razón De Mi Ausencia Es Mi Secreto/The Reason For My Absence Is My Secret

Josh y Anel se han marchado a Pluto, y ni siquiera es una planeta ya; es lo que nadie sabe nombrar. Es un todo sin nombre.

Josh and Anel have gone away to Pluto, and it's not even a planet anymore; it's what no one knows how to call. It's a nameless everything.

Al final, lo importante es estar felíz!

Aveces realmente no sé qué escribir porque lo que realmente quiero decir es muy privado para publicarlo aquí. Pero mi corazón está contento. Deben saber que estoy bastante atariada con la universidad. Estas han sido las semanas de exámenes y eso puede volver a algunas personas locas. Yo hago lo que tengo que hacer, doy lo mejor de mí, no pienso mucho en el asunto y vivo mi vida. Mi corazón está 100% contento. No podría estar mejor! Estoy cansada y con sueño, pero mejor que nunca, más saludable que nunca, más felíz que nunca. Aveces una sola cosa.....o una sola persona puede hacer la diferencia entre aspirar a ser la mejor y realmente estar dispuesta a pasar cualquier dificultad con tal de ser la mejor. Le deseo a todos muchas bendiciones y mucho amor.

No se olviden de dar, lo que quieran recibir!

Dad, y se os dará; medida buena, apretada, remecida y rebosando darán en vuestro regazo; porque con la misma medida con que medís, os volverán a medir.
Lucas 6:38

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Sometimes I just dont really know what to write because what I really want to say might be too private to publish it here. But my heart is content. You should all know that I'm super busy with school. These have been the weeks of midterms and they can drive some people crazy. I do what I need to do, give my best, don't think too much about it and live my life. My heart is 100% content. I couldn't be better! I'm tired and sleepy, but better than ever, healthier than ever, happier than ever. Sometimes just one more thing.......or one more person in our lives can make the difference between aspiring to be the best, and actually be willing to go through anything to be the best. I wish you all many blessings and I wish you all much love.

Do not ever forget to give, what you would like to receive!

Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.
Luke 6:38

Little Things/Las Cosas Pequeñas

Link: Little Things

Al final del día son las cosas pequeñas las que nos mantienen conectados. Siempre debemos mirar nuestras vidas de la manera más positiva posible. Debemos de buscar de Dios o cualquier metodo de espiritualidad que funcione con cada persona. En este blog no hablo mucho sobre mis creencias porque es bastante personal para mí. Pero quisiera aclarar que por más fuerte que sean mis creencias no podría privar a una persona de cualquier método espiritual que lo haga vivir una vida más balanceada. Al final del día, cada quien cree lo que quiere creer y vive como quiere vivir. Pero siempre estemos conscientes que nuestra espiritualidad es importante, que las buenas obras son importantes, que los buenos pensamientos son importantes, las buenas relaciones. Mantengámonos conectados con las cosas buenas y nuestras vidas serán mas fáciles de vivir, y haremos las vidas de los demás más fáciles al igual.

Que viva el amor, la paz, la nobleza y la unidad!

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At the end of the day the small things are the ones that keep us conected. We should always look at our lives in the most positive way. We should search the face of God or any other method of spirituality that works for each individual. In this blog I don't speak a lot about my beliefs because they are rather personal for me. But I'd like to make clear that for stronger that my beliefs may be, I could never prohibit someone for whatever method of spirituality makes them live a more balanced life. At the end of the day everyone believes what they choose to believe and live their lives the way they want to live it. But we should always be aware that our spirituality is important, that good works are important, that good thoughts are important, good relationships. Let's keep ourselves connected to good things and our lives will be easier to live, and we will make other people's lives easier as well.

To love, peace, humbleness and unity!

Every Day...

Cada día lucho por ser menos como esta niña y más como ella también.

Every day I fight for being less like this little girl and more like her too.

Umm, De Qué Debería Tratar Este Post?/What Should This Post Be About?

Perhaps that I'm doing GREAT at college! Quizás debería decir que me esta yendo SUPER en la Universidad!

Or that I'm taking my writing seriously again. O que estoy tomando el escribir en serio una vez más.

That I'm learning all about 'men's secrets' in a workshop (Act Like A Lady, Think Like A Man) Que estoy tomando un taller donde se revelan todos los 'secretos' de los hombres.

That I auditioned for the play Six Degrees Of Separation to be presented next month (Gee, I really can't believe I'm acting again. It feels amazing!) Que audicioné para la obra Seis Grados De Separación que se presentará el mes próximo. (Wow, no puedo creer que estoy actuando otra vez. Se siente increíble!)

That I registered for the 8th Annual Event For College Poets. Que me registré para el evento anual de Poetas Universitarios.


That I went to the Hispanic Latino Cultural Center of New York, met Junot Díaz again, and he remembered me! Whoa, such a surprise! He signed my Oscar Wao copy, and again, another special autograph. Que fuí al Centro Cultural Latino Hispano de Nueva York, me encontré con Junot Díaz otra vez, y se acordó de mi! Wow, qué sorpresa! Firmó my copia de Oscar Wao una vez más con un autógrafo especial.

That I loved Prayer In The Square even if I could only stream it live from home. It was unbelievable! Que me encantó el evento Oración en Times Square aunque solo lo pude ver en vivo desde casa. Estuvo increíble!


That I watched the Emmy's and got really upset because I realized how underrated Dexter is. (Congratulations to Jessica Lange!) Que ví a los Emmy's y me enojé porque me dí cuenta de lo subestimado que es Dexter. (Felicitaciones a Jessica Lange!)

That Mad Men totally deserved that Emmy! Gee, has anyone seen the last episode? That show is the bomb! Que Mad Men tuvo ese Emmy más que merecido! Vieron el último episodio? Ese show es bomba!

The joke of the week was: Maybe, at Patrick Swayze's Funeral, Kanye West will take the microphone from the priest and say that Michael Jackson had the best death of the year, hahaha! (Cut him some slack, ya'll) El chiste de la semana fue: Tal vez, en el funeral de Patrick Swayze, Kanye West le quitará el micrófono al sacerdote para decir que Michael Jackson tuvo la mejor muerte del año, hahaha! (Ya es tiempo de dejar a ese tipo en paz, gente)

Not much time to blog, but all the time in the world to live! Peace to all!
No hay mucho tiempo para bloguear, pero todo el tiempo del mundo para vivir! Paz a todos!

Busy Bee

No he publicado más entradas debido a las demandas de tiempo que tengo. He empezado la Universidad una vez más ahora con 6 materias. Lo que más me molesta de estar tan ocupada es que en vez de apaciguar mi creatividad, la alimenta; y el no tener tiempo de plasmar esa creatividad en un papel me molesta sobremanera. Intentaré publicar cada 2 semanas al menos. Tal vez no tenga mucho tiempo para leer sus bitácoras, pero lo haré en cuanto tenga tiempo. Creo que mis entradas se harán cada vez más interesantes, estén sintonizados!

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I have not published more posts due to the lack of time I have. I have begun College again now with 6 courses. What bothers me the most is that instead of lowering my sense of creativity, this heightens it; and not having enough time to write that creativity in a piece of paper bothers me a lot. I will try to publish at least every two weeks. Perhaps I won't have time to read your blogs but I will as soon as I have time. I think that my posts will be more interesting, so stay tuned!

Rihanna

Te duermes en mis brazos.

Lloras.

Ríes.

Los parpados caen.

Sonrío.

Te beso.

Te meso.

Y te hablo dentro de mí:
Cuando estés grandecita te voy a contar una historia acerca del trabajo que me dabas para dormirte y cómo me hacías creer que llorabas, te provocabas la tos, te reías para jugar conmigo.

Te amo, chiquita.

No sé si es amor de Tia o amor de madre sin ser tu madre.

Sé que todo el mundo dice que los niños de su familia son los más especiales. Pero tu eres especial de verdad. Pensé que te iba a querer, pero nunca imaginé cuánto. Ahora mi corazón está dividido y no hay una más especial.

Felíz primer añito!

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You fall asleep in my arms.

You cry.

You smile.

Your eyelashes begin to kiss.

I smile.

I kiss you.

I swing you.

I speak to you inside of me:
When you're bigger, I'll tell you a story about how difficult you made it for me to see you fall asleep and how you made me believe you cried, provoked your own cough and laughed to play with me, all to get out of sleeping.

I love you, my little.

I don't know it's Auntie's love or mother's love without being your mother.

I know everyone says that the children in their families are special, but you truly are. I thought I was going to love you, but I never imagined how much. Now my heart is divided and neither one is more special.

Happy first year!

Ay, ay, ay!!

Tengo como 10 entradas medio escritas sin tiempo para terminarlas, editarlas, etc. Y a muchos blogs que adoro que no tengo tiempo de visitar. Arrgggg!! Cómo se hace cuando a una le encanta bloguiar y no tiene tiempo para hacerlo?

De vuelta a la frustración, haha.

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I've got about 10 entries half written with no time to finish them, edit them, etc. And I have plenty of blogs that I love and have no time to visit. Arrgggg!! What do you do when you love blogging but have no time to do it?

Back to the frustration, haha.

Un Dia Raro

The above picture is a real NYC train.

On Sunday I hung around 49th street and saw what I had forgotten was supposed to happen there. It was the premiere of Mad Men. Goodness, I got so exited! Specially after seeing one of the actors there. I had never seen this show before, but I got curious one day because Baakanit had mentioned it. I loved it since I saw it, and I cannot believe that I missed the exclusive premiere in my city. The Ad for the event was New York Has Gone Mad. Aw, I loved it. I couldn't stay because I was hanging out with pretty hungry people who don't watch the show. But the event was very nicely set up. They had sat people in tables with white sheets. They had waiters serving them in those 60's uniforms, white jackets, black ties. I even heard that there were people dressed like the 60's competing for a prize. It was very unique and I wish I had planned on going.

On the way to the restaurant I once again remembered by blog friend Baakanit who has a blog about the strange things he bumps into in New York. I saw this homeless guy holding a piece of carton that read: CAN I HAVE A BEER, MAN. Hahaha, so original and honest too, I gotta give him that. I wonder how often people give him money and it was sort of a nice contrast, having just seen the Mad Men event and that kind of advertising. I guess that even the homeless need good advertising, huh?

We ate and then went back to where the event had been. Everyone was gone and things were being put away. I had never sat in those TKTS stairs, but for some reason I did having my coffee. And then I found a funny looking notebook. It was really strange looking. I saw a woman writing behind me and I asked if it was hers. She said no and then I proceeded to read. It turns out that the little notebook belonged to a dancer, and this person writes the most important things about the dances she/he choreographs. Gosh! It was so poetic. I loved it, and then about halfway through the notes, I really felt like returning it. But I have no idea who is the owner and there's too many different numbers and names, also adresses not only from New York, but from other states. So, I've decided to keep it and read it from time to time. Those dance notes can really inspire me to write some pretty neat things.

Anywho, it was a very strange day. But I also loved it. Wow, I even went to a weird Starbucks that didn't have chairs! I looked at the girl behind the counter smiling like if I knew something she didn't and said: excuse me, where are the chairs? She smiled and said that they don't have any, that that's more like an express Starbucks. I thought that was pretty cool. It's awesome for those who need to grab their coffee and run.

I swear I wanted to take pictures and send them to my 'raro' Blother. But I had forgotten to take the camera :D

Nueva York, Nueva York!

I have a cousin who is visiting from the Dominican Republic. She's 17 and is falling in love with New York. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing by showing her the things that I love the most about this city. I'm not exactly an expert, but there's things I love and know I couldn't leave.

We walked from 33rd street to 47th. There's never anything boring about this city. I bought her a Frapuccino and she has sorta had a crush on Starbucks ever since. Hahaha, not only that, but I also make all kind of coffees in my house and she claims that mines are better (I seriously doubt that). After walking around and introducing her to some of my friends who work around there, we went to 42nd street and she had a Cold Stone ice cream. She was so surprised by it and she again fell in love with the ice cream. We sat at the Starbucks next door to eat ice cream, talk about life, have a few laughs. Hahaha, I hope someone doesn't feel like I'm cheating on her. (I'm such a whore, I take everyone to the same places. Haha) Anyways, so there we saw all of the different people passing by. I said: One the things that I love most about New York, is that you can be anyone you like and no one cares. We're all so different, but the thing that unites us is exactly that. I love New York. I couldn't live anywhere else. Where else could we have so much diversity so easily accesible?

I don't hope for my cousin to want to come live here one day. I don't think she could handle it. She was terrified when I cursed out a pervert who wanted to grab her and talk to her. But I hope that when she leaves, she's a bit edgier and she knows that there's more to life than the people she goes to school with and her immediate family. I hope that one day she can take me to all of the places she loves where she lives, introduce me to her friends and teach me something I don't know about my own country.

Ahhh!!!

Mucha inspiración y poco tiempo...

Plenty of inspiration and little time...

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Uno De Esos Días

Have you ever had one of those days in which the night before you hung out so much, talked so much, laughed so much, that the next day you wake up so very tired that even thinking is a lot of work? I'm having one of those days. Have a nice weekend y'all!

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Alguna vez has tenido uno de esos días en los cuales la noche anterior andaste tanto, hablaste tanto, reíste tanto que al otro día amaneces tan pero tan cansada(o) que hasta pensar es mucho trabajo? Estoy teniendo uno de esos días. Que tengan un buen fin de semana!

At Night...

En las noches, cuando debería estar durmiendo, me encuentro pintando el mundo como el lugar más felíz jamás visto. Me despierto creyendo que mi sueño se ha vuelto realidad. No le digo a nadie, pero sospecho que un día será así. No aceptaré menos de lo que he imaginado. Sospecho que la vida se disfruta solo cuando sabes quién eres y lo que quieres. Creo que lo sé :D y todo lo que he hecho con tal de alcanzar este momento ha valido la pena!

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At night, when I should be falling asleep, I find myself painting the world as the happiest place ever seen. I wake up all happy believing that my dream came true. I don't tell anyone, but I suspect that one day it'll be that way. I won't take anything less than exactly the way I've imagined it. I suspect that life is enjoyable only when you know who you are and what you want. I think I do :D and everything I've done to achieve this moment has all been worth it!

Joshua

I wanted to write something that meant what I wanted it to mean. I wanted to tell you that I fell a bit in love with you. I wanted to tell a story that did not happen, but that made my heart jump. I just wanted to prove if I could still love, and I chose to fall for you right here, in this story.

You glanced at me with those sad eyes. Your shoulders exhibited the struggle of a defeated man. And I stood there in amazement because I could not comprehend how a man so beautiful could feel so lonely, so undeserving of love. I wanted to go over and ask you what happened. I wanted to let you tell me all of your thoughts and fears. I wanted to know who hurt you, why they would do such a thing to somebody like you. I wanted to hold you, care for you and inevitably fall for you. And then it suddenly hit me, that no such thing ever happens. That every man who has ever been spoiled and felt loved by these arms has never loved me back as I wanted. So I went over to the table and made up some story about how I always see you around and wanted to know your name. And you said: Joshua. I took a big gulp and my heart pounded. I forgot to say my name and left as fast as I could.

That was how I wanted to fall in love with you for a bit, not the way it really happened, because right now I have nothing but your name. I have nothing but my most favorite name, accompanied by the knowledge that you're a sensible guy. I didn't even have a chance to decide if I wanted to keep you as a friend, and it's making me write a story. But now I also realize that I don't really want a story. I just want to say your name: Joshua...

and let all of the feelings that come with that name just be.

Y Empecé

And I began the day with a painted smile between my heart and my eyes.
I couldn't help it.
I caught it without effort,
and now I don't want it to go.
The smile that awaited me,
the one that is only birthed from love.
The one that becomes my reason to breath and be.
And today it taught me to be humble in everything.

Well! Hard thing to do, have my heart opened and vulnerable against this great city.
I'll be okay :D

If you're like me, today you will find every existent occasion to laugh as hard as you can with no shame and much pride.

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Y empecé el día con una sonrisa dibujada entre el corazón y los ojos.
No pude contenerla.
La atrapé sin esfuerzo,
y ahora no la quiero dejar ir.
La sonrisa que me esperaba,
la que solo nace de un amor.
La que se vuelve mi razón de respirar y de ser.
Y hoy me ensenó a ser humilde en cada cosa.

Bueno! Difícil cosa, tener el corazón abierto y vulnerable ante esta gran ciudad.
Estaré bien :D

Si eres como yo, hoy encontrarás cada ocasión existente para reir tan fuerte como puedas sin verguenza alguna y bastante orgullo.